These last few months have been hard, every time I would start blogging I would let out my little secret and I didn't want to just yet. But now I am ready to share... I'm pregnant! It still feels so weird to say, but I nevertheless I am so excited!
I didn't think I would get pregnant for a while because it had taken so long the first time. But I was a few days late and realized I was craving the things I did last time. Thinking there was no way I was pregnant, I bought my tests at the Dollar Store. I got home and took the test, before the time was up that second line was visible. I couldn't believe it, so, I took another test and same thing. I finally fessed up to my hubs. He of course, gave himself the majority of the credit and then we began discussing when we should start telling people.
When I went to see my new endo (We will call her Dr. Awesome) she assured me that my numbers were great and told me to make sure to keep my after meal numbers at 130 and below. I see her every two weeks and she has been my saving grace. It's hard being diabetic in general, you have a ton of pressure to keep your numbers in check, but when you have a bad day or week it's just a bad day or week. When you are pregnant you are consumed with guilt. I talked about this a lot of Dr. Awesome and she let me know that yes, the goal is to keep my numbers in line, but to just remember that it's going to be ok if I have a bad day or two.
Because I wanted tighter control I found myself having more lows than normal. What I didn't know or understand was that during your first trimester you are insulin sensitive. I needed less insulin than normal to keep my numbers in line. I also learned that just because the only thing that you can keep down are carbs doesn't mean you are at liberty to do when you are diabetic. I got in a lot of trouble for not having enough protein or fat in the mornings, but learned a great compromise was protein shakes. They were great! They were easy on my stomach and helped my numbers from spiking and dropping.
I am still learning things as I go, but so far baby is happy and healthy and that's all I can ask for at the end of the day.